Spliting Emotion

It has been a great year so far...

Since joining my current company, time flies super fast with all the company set up and getting everyone in motion and trying my best to make everyone feel like part of the family. The year started with a lot of testing and fixing bugs for us to launched our product and services on Valentine day. Once launched, things operates at an even faster pace than before. We have to improve users traffic and our products before sales starts. That means more hiring, more training, more skillful staff needed. I was lucky to have hired a group of young and talented staff to work with. Everyone has their own personality but we work towards to same goal, for the brighter future of this company.

We created more verticals to support our main business. We created campaign to draw more users and keeping their interest on our site. We manage to build an outstanding return visitors to our site. With mere 2 months, we already out-perform our competitors and became Malaysia No. 1. The ranking and rating were not in anyway handled by us but a well known 3rd party. We have built a great product everyone can be proud of. I know I am. Having be part of this team and build the company from ground zero to where it is now...I can finally say I did achieved something in life.

My CEO has been tough but he's the most knowledgeable person I've known. To know his thoughts, his vision, I had to throw away everything I have gained from the past and open my mind to learn and see from his point of view. He has great business sense, excellent IT knowledge and a fair person. He's not stingy with his reward. I am proud to have the opportunity to work with him. In fact, it took me 6 months to understand his working style and run as the same pace as him.

Things was going well and I was deciding to grow and work my best for the future of this company. I'm trying ways to create campaign to assist sales to monetise more revenue to the company. My hope is to close 60% of this year sales target. Yea, the economic situation doesn't help but I believe our products and services will be able to help advertisers reaching more users. We have over 1 millions users! I hope to win my fight for staff bonus end of this year. I hope to win an increment for all staff. At least 5% for all staff. Nevermind if I didn't got it but all staff deserve it and it will certainly boost their confidence and moral. Managing this company, I learn to be more diplomatic and patience when dealing with non-perform staff. I want the best for everyone.

However, last week I was approached by a company who would like me to join them. The interview and letter of offer was settled is a zip! I haven't sign the offer letter yet. There's something in my heart. Something that's heavy for me to let go. The package the new company offer is 20% increment and the best part is I don't have tp handle sales target. It's great right? But like every job I joined, the first 6 to 12 months will be super busy where I have to set up and restructure everything. I thnk I have became quite good at it. In fact, I think this is my skills. In the new company, I have to work till wee hours twice a week due to the production datelines. I know I can improve it but that means I have to start working till late nights again. That means I don't have personal life again. That means work stress again. This mean I will miss a bonus again. I missed a bonus from my previous company because I left the company late last year. If I accepted this offer, it means I have to start work in December. I would be missing out bonus from my current company. Should I go? My heart is having a spliting emotion.

The good thing of the new company is that I will be reporting to a English CEO. I work better in a multi-national company. I've having a spliting emotion. Should I go? I have to take this holiday and think through. I wish I have someone I can share this question.