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Since I came back from my CNY leaves, work just pile up and working environment is getting more tense. Reporting to a CEO and being the head of a department, I'm always squash in between management, sales and my staff. It's just extremely difficult to adjust myself and satisfy everyone. If I comply to one side, I'll get question by the other 2 sides. No matter how I juggle it, swist it, 50%-50% it, it never work. It bounces to have 2 sides come complaining to me about their dissatisfaction or disagreement of my action.

I wish someone will tell me how to manage a stupid company with stupid people inside. I feel like walk out of the office and the job in 24 hours. I don't care about not having job, I don't care about financial implications, I don't care about not getting my last salary due to my 24hours action. I don't care about the legal action company might take due to my walk out. I've been push to the corner and I really can't take it anymore. Everything I do, instead of trying to understand my situation and the position I'm in, I only hear whinning and complaint. I do it - wrong, I don't do it - wrong. No matter what I do, there's no correct answer or solution.

In reality, I need this job. During this time when the US slowdown and weak dollar currency, I can't loose this job because this is one of the most stable companies in the country. I can't afford go without salary for even a month because of my commitment. I wish I didn't started the commitment. I never like any commitment. My work from home hasn't started. It can't start until I move in to my new place. After that, I still have to prepare some of the stuff before my SOHO can kick start. So, for the time being, I don't have any solution and have to make the best out of it everyday.