Election is around the corner and every night, one third or two third of the news is about the election campaign. The heat is getting hotter by the days and I aspect many will return home to vote. Friday before and Monday after the election day will see many people take leaves. flags, banting, banners are up around the cities, towns and villages. Nowadays you see leaders visiting the rakyat, which is the common scene during this period. After the election, you'll only see them meet the rakyat maybe once a year if you're lucky. The campaign period will starts soon, the ceramah will starts soon.
We are not the only country on election fever. US and Pakistan are also hot into the election mood. Anyway, I'm not into politic and hates it. Politic in the office is enough to drive me crazy.
I applied for a new job last month and unfortunately I fell the second interview. The MD doesn't feel confident that I can do my job well. He feels that my current responsibilities are easy and not much work to be done. He feels that I only monitor and nothing else. How I wish THIS IS my only responsibility. It would be an easy job. Don't you think so? I don't have to take on other people's work and other department's work. It would be blessing if I don't have to resolve work delay due to other department or stuff. Even I have work really hard last year, my performance is not based on individual achievement. It's based on the ridiculous shared performance where I don't have any control nor any information about it at hand. Worse, I'm not even involve in it directly or indirectly. First time in my career life that I don't have bonus and a unvalid performance.
This has hamper my mood and my drive to work and to improve the internal business processes anymore. It's now just a job take I get my salary every month and not a place I can grow. However, being in my position, I am unable to show my demotivation in front of 40 over staff reporting to me. They have work hard and have improve over the year since I joined this company. No doubt it is still a long way to go, but in general all have shown some improvement and taking more responsibilities. It's like in the election, there are ups and downs.
I no longer able to make decision at free will like I do 3 years ago. When I don't like my work or the environment, I just pack my stuff and hand in my letter. Then I will take my sweet time to look for another job. I can just stay at home and catch up with my own things. Days like these have long gone. I just it's part and parcel of life as you get older. As one gets older, money become more and more important in life. We don't have unemployed benefits like in Aussie or in Europe.
Planning to further studies has always been in my mind. Unfortunately, financial is the hinderance. With the rising living cost, I always wonder how everyone who earns less than 2k survive throughout the month. It's tough when all essential items are on the rise and will never goes down again. Unfortunately, salary in general are the same for the past 4-5 years. Even though we see in the news the government servant getting pay rise, it is actually about the price one pay for every increase monthly. In reality, there's no increase in the standard of living. Increase standard of living is when the salary is higher in comparision to the cost of living.
I hope my mood and aspiration will improve next week, anyway I doubt it. Like someone said, life goes on...
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