The After Storm

After 2 weeks of clashing and argument with Sham, this week things are cooling down. It was a fair bit too. I believe it maybe due to additional creative people in the office this week. We are pitching for a creative campaign to a bank. Being short-handed, I hire 2 freelancers - one designer and one copywriter. The freelancers are from my previous company. These two freelancers give motivation and revive drive to Sham. As he needs energy, critical mind that challenges his, someone whom he can relate, throw out his frustration and ideas, same wave-lane and share the same jokes. People who can make him click.

I must say it has been a good week so far. I am beginning to understand what he need. He needs creative juice to get him running and go through the day here in the company. Critical thinking to pump his heart beat and heats up his creative mind. He seems to have more passion and creative ideas with the freelancers around. This prompt me something. Do I want to headhunt more stuff from mt previous company? Do I want to give the freelance designer another chance? Can I tolerate with his attendance problem and BS? Can I accept his all talk and no result? I have to think carefully. I don't want to end up questioning Sham about his friend. I don't want to end up with another frustration and dissapointment.

I know Sham is not going to be long here. This is a fact. I know he is helping me to set up the creative department and making arrangement to smoothen the operations. Once things are running on it own, he will bid goodbye and ove on to agency life. A decision that I am slowing accepting with a extremely heavy heart. As I mentioned in my previous entries that I have problem working with people, and it is very hard for me to find someone whom I can work with and as a team. So far, I only found 6 after my 9 years in the work force.

The first one is my Sales Manager when I work in a hotel. The next three was during my previous company. A Human Resource Manager, Marketing Manager and a software developer. Next is my bf. The Sales Manager is now a full time mom living in US. The Human Resource Manager is in the consumer industry. My Marketing Manager is now a full time mom helping her hubby in the creative agency. My developer friend is now the Head of Operations with a country's top communications company. My bf is with the finance industry. I found out that I can work well with Sham during my previous company. We argue a lot and sometime have different ideas but I work well with him and able to tolerate with him. I pull him over because I strongly believe that if we work as a team, we both can achieve very far in this company and build a strong resume.

However, all this dream is going to just dream. As he has lost his motivation and his view of life has changed, I have no choice but re-think and re-plan my next steps. I still don't know what I want to do after this but with GOD on my side, I hope to find and solution.