Living in the jungle required a very high EQ. Mainly to face the animals in the jungle. As a freshie in this aged jungle, I have to cope with my EQ problem. I am never good at EQ. Many in my herds have highlighted to me. I tried my best level to adapt in the jungle but my lack of control in EQ is pulling me down.
Managing baboons, snakes, donkey, coyotes, cows and hippos are draining my emotion every day. After about 3 months in the new jungle, I am starting to wonder if I can survived. I am not a quiter so I will not run away from the jungle. Somehow I need to find a solution for my weak EQ in order to survive. Every time when I need to talk, I will pour my heart out to my beloved teddy. Even teddy can't help me because he faces the same situation as mine, it's owesome of him to listen to my whinning patiencely.
Sometimes I would pour my emotions to Gorilla de-Sag but I dare not express too much as he too has lack of control of his EQ. I am worried that if I tell Gorilla too much, it will affect him and he might leave the jungle. As I never want to lose and will fight till the end, I fear that losing Gorilla will means I defect and fail. He mentioned to him yesterday that I need a back up. Meaning to find another Gorilla. Each time I felt that de-Sag might leave, my worry will just zoom up and drain out all my energy. I tried my best not to stress him out and make life in the jungle as interesting as possible or where possible. Unfortunately, I don't think I am doing a good job.
I know not many animals can work with me and it was not easy to find de-Sag that can work with me as a team. Should I leave the aged jungle?
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