Learn to Change

After a dreadful morning, I finally said to Sham that I'm giving myself one month to think a few issues. At this point of time, I believe I need to re-think what I really want in life. I have to re-learn and sharpen up my design skills because I know at the moment, I've lost it and even Sham has no confidence in me. I do know that I want to work on my own, be my own boss and be a freelance designer and project manager for companies campaign. What I don't know is how to achieve it.

My boss want me to be an outstanding creative director. Maybe that's what I really want to achieve but I never realised it until he mentioned it. I want to have freedom of time and space. I want to work alone and be alone. Somehow, I don't understand why I think this way. Even with Teddy, I feel that I need some time to be alone whenever I am feeling down or over-stress from work. Working here has caused me to become like the people inside this company. I started to complaint about people in the company. I started to whin on petty stuff. Maybe my ex-staff was right, working in this company has made me become like them.