Trust

Trust. A word I have heard ever since I was a child. However, yesterday, the word rang true and deep inside. Never have I put so much weigh in this word but yesterday was the day.

Trust appeared twice. First time, I was betray by trust. Someone I put my full trust and hope had betrayed me. I don't think he realised it but being the person who has extremely hugh problem with trust, it felt like a Hiroshima boom hitting me. In the place I'm working now, I need someone I can rely on and trust. You see, I have a weakness. When faced with hugh challenges and obsticles, I'm not as strong as I may seem. I will worry that I can't achieve what others want of me. I worry that I might fail and fail miserably. I worry that I can't live up to others standard and expectation. Therefore, I have to find a rock that I could 'lean on' and feel protected invisibly. A rock that I could hide my fear and anxiety. A rock that I can share my thoughts and seeking for advices. A rock that will support me even though no one less would believe in me. A rock that will pin-point my mistakes and encourage me. A rock that will comfort me when I'm being bullied. A rock whom I can call a friend. That's my rock.

However, I was still as gullible and naive as ever that I put too much hope and trust on my rock. In the end, I am the one who get burnt. History repeated and I just never learnt my mistake. I keep repeating my mistake. I let my guard down. I trust someone and I forget that others don't share the same value as I do. Yesterday, trust was broken and I have to swallow my stupidity.

Next time I hear trust was during a meeting. Trust was being mentioned as THE most improtant ingredient for the success of the tycoon. When asked how he can become so rich? He reply, "Trust". Without trust, all business will fail.