Two days ago I read an article in a female magazine regarding new year resolution. It was from the editor's desk so I just want to know what she thinks. Surprisingly, the article brought a refreshing note. She mentioned about an incident with her 10-year-old who told her mom that she worry about every little things. This got the mom thinking.
Guess what, her new year resolution is reduce fear. Fear of snatch thief, fear of losing ones job, fear for the children and more. It's our everyday fear that makes us sceptical and prevent us from moving forward and enjoy life to the fullest. Her article got me thinking about my fear.
I worry too much. Worry about my career, worry about my health, worry about my diet, my losing weigh that never seem to work, worry about my bf, worry about my friends, worry about my colleagues and staff, worry about my CD whom I might have given too much task, worry about my designer who might not stay long due to his peanut salary, worry about my dogs and more.Besides worry, I fear of snatch thief, fear of people who's take advantages of my kindness, fear for my safety walking home at night, fear of thunderstome and etc.
All this accumulated and it seems to be reducing a big chunk of my life fulfillment. It takes away my joy of living, the joy of trusting, joy of sharing, joy of laughters. With all the fear and worries, life has become a routine, lost its special magic spices and charm. The once a happy-go-lucky gal has gone for a long holiday. Comments were given that I don't laugh as much, I live in my own island, I think too much of others, I stress too much, I'm too serious, I'm not approachable. All these comments and feedback flashes me when I read that article. Indeed I need to change. I need to reduce my fear and worry. I need to live life as to the fullest and be less sceptical. I have to trust my close friends and learn to open up my problems to close friends.
The list is easier to say than done. Nevertheless, I will try my best. If not all, at least 20%? Happy New Year Teddy.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
New boss in DBKL
Kudos! to the new boss for DBKL. Yesterday I was able to go hime early and had the opportunity to watch the news before I went out for dinner with friends. There was a report regarding a-cry-for-help from the residents in one of the main suburb in the city. Aparently, they have been living in a stench. To be exact, they are living together with a illegal ground of waste. The reporter was sending a strong message to DBKL who wasn't doing their job. There was interviews with some of the residents expressing their out-cry of the unbearable smell specially after the rain.
Alas! Immediately today there was an emergency meeting held by the new boss of DBKL and the place was clean up this very day. I've been living in KL for over 7 years and this is one of those days I wish all government/civil servents are such efficient. This attitude is more important as we are ushering into Visit Malaysia Year 2007 in a few days.
Thank you DBKL.
Alas! Immediately today there was an emergency meeting held by the new boss of DBKL and the place was clean up this very day. I've been living in KL for over 7 years and this is one of those days I wish all government/civil servents are such efficient. This attitude is more important as we are ushering into Visit Malaysia Year 2007 in a few days.
Thank you DBKL.
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
My EQ or lack of it
Living in the jungle required a very high EQ. Mainly to face the animals in the jungle. As a freshie in this aged jungle, I have to cope with my EQ problem. I am never good at EQ. Many in my herds have highlighted to me. I tried my best level to adapt in the jungle but my lack of control in EQ is pulling me down.
Managing baboons, snakes, donkey, coyotes, cows and hippos are draining my emotion every day. After about 3 months in the new jungle, I am starting to wonder if I can survived. I am not a quiter so I will not run away from the jungle. Somehow I need to find a solution for my weak EQ in order to survive. Every time when I need to talk, I will pour my heart out to my beloved teddy. Even teddy can't help me because he faces the same situation as mine, it's owesome of him to listen to my whinning patiencely.
Sometimes I would pour my emotions to Gorilla de-Sag but I dare not express too much as he too has lack of control of his EQ. I am worried that if I tell Gorilla too much, it will affect him and he might leave the jungle. As I never want to lose and will fight till the end, I fear that losing Gorilla will means I defect and fail. He mentioned to him yesterday that I need a back up. Meaning to find another Gorilla. Each time I felt that de-Sag might leave, my worry will just zoom up and drain out all my energy. I tried my best not to stress him out and make life in the jungle as interesting as possible or where possible. Unfortunately, I don't think I am doing a good job.
I know not many animals can work with me and it was not easy to find de-Sag that can work with me as a team. Should I leave the aged jungle?
Managing baboons, snakes, donkey, coyotes, cows and hippos are draining my emotion every day. After about 3 months in the new jungle, I am starting to wonder if I can survived. I am not a quiter so I will not run away from the jungle. Somehow I need to find a solution for my weak EQ in order to survive. Every time when I need to talk, I will pour my heart out to my beloved teddy. Even teddy can't help me because he faces the same situation as mine, it's owesome of him to listen to my whinning patiencely.
Sometimes I would pour my emotions to Gorilla de-Sag but I dare not express too much as he too has lack of control of his EQ. I am worried that if I tell Gorilla too much, it will affect him and he might leave the jungle. As I never want to lose and will fight till the end, I fear that losing Gorilla will means I defect and fail. He mentioned to him yesterday that I need a back up. Meaning to find another Gorilla. Each time I felt that de-Sag might leave, my worry will just zoom up and drain out all my energy. I tried my best not to stress him out and make life in the jungle as interesting as possible or where possible. Unfortunately, I don't think I am doing a good job.
I know not many animals can work with me and it was not easy to find de-Sag that can work with me as a team. Should I leave the aged jungle?
Face of the day
Yesterday Gorilla de-Sag was stress out due stupid-cupid in the jungle. I think part of it was because he had to moved out from his cave. This was how his facial expression yesterday. Curtesy of Shutterstock.
Multi-face and attitude coyote
The morning jungle journey started off with a bang. I was summon to a meeting with wizard de Wise. Preparing myself and arm with answers, I marched up to the top of the hill together with my adorable and meticulate gorilla named de-Sag. When I reached wizard de-Wise hut, I noticed Baboon de-Ann was already there seated with a book in her hand. Immediately when de-Wise personal assistant saw gorilla and me, she instructed the 3 of us to enter the chamber. The chamber felt a bit warm and bright today. Topic to the day is reward. de-Wise would like to express his gratitude by rewarding us with gold coins. Upon hearing this, de-shaz and I was thrill with the news. At last someone recognise our effort and hard work.
As we were digesting the good news, came the senior Goat named de-Zee. de-Wise asked de-Zee if the 3 of us are allow to claim the rewards. Upon hearing this, de-Zee mentioned that it was not a current practise that a senior animals entitle for gold coins. However, he could bring it up to the board of animal kingdom. With that, de-Wise agreed. As de-Wise would like to show his token of appreciation, de-Zee said we can claim jungle fruits. All de-Zee needs is the time with work. Being quite a rebel, de-Sag and I never punch our time sheet. I could never get the logic behind swaping my touch pad everytime I enter the jungle but still need to punch the antique clock like the worker ants. Well, in order to claim our gold coins, de-Sag and I have no choice but to start using the antique clocking. All this just for the gold coins.
Baboon de-Ann who has been quiet started to babling. She said that it's all about time management. As long as one knows how to manage time efficient, there
s no need to claim the gold coins. Hmmm... has she forgot that she only manage one project but I manage a hugh department of work force? Gorilla de-Sag has to managed all the creative projects single-handedly and at the same time train his team of soldiers to be as good as him. If not at least 50% like him so that everyone will achieve a good performance review from Kitty de-Jun. Her remarks seems to me as a way to pitch for favourite from de-Wise. Baboon de-Ann is smart and cunning. She knows that in order to stay safe in the jungle, she has to make sure her skills and talents are recognised. Maybe is her plan to secure herself. However, I hope not at the expand of putting her hand into my teritory.
Everytime I entered a new jungle, I am summon to turn around a sick teritory into a well groomed and exciting place to work and harvest. When my teritory is green, healthy and fruitful, coyotes in various disguises will try to enter and make a mark and impression off my hardwork. They are like linches who would suck my blood dry. consume my energy and my spirit. This new jungle I have already faced 2 coyotes. I believe as the months goes by, there will be more and more coyote disguised as other innocent animals in the hope to enter my teritory and stole the harvest. Worse, some will try to concure my teritory and outcast me.
Since this is not the first time I encounter multi face and attitude coyotes, I still have to guard my teritory wisely and on full alert. Stay tune to next episode of Life in the Jungle.
As we were digesting the good news, came the senior Goat named de-Zee. de-Wise asked de-Zee if the 3 of us are allow to claim the rewards. Upon hearing this, de-Zee mentioned that it was not a current practise that a senior animals entitle for gold coins. However, he could bring it up to the board of animal kingdom. With that, de-Wise agreed. As de-Wise would like to show his token of appreciation, de-Zee said we can claim jungle fruits. All de-Zee needs is the time with work. Being quite a rebel, de-Sag and I never punch our time sheet. I could never get the logic behind swaping my touch pad everytime I enter the jungle but still need to punch the antique clock like the worker ants. Well, in order to claim our gold coins, de-Sag and I have no choice but to start using the antique clocking. All this just for the gold coins.
Baboon de-Ann who has been quiet started to babling. She said that it's all about time management. As long as one knows how to manage time efficient, there
s no need to claim the gold coins. Hmmm... has she forgot that she only manage one project but I manage a hugh department of work force? Gorilla de-Sag has to managed all the creative projects single-handedly and at the same time train his team of soldiers to be as good as him. If not at least 50% like him so that everyone will achieve a good performance review from Kitty de-Jun. Her remarks seems to me as a way to pitch for favourite from de-Wise. Baboon de-Ann is smart and cunning. She knows that in order to stay safe in the jungle, she has to make sure her skills and talents are recognised. Maybe is her plan to secure herself. However, I hope not at the expand of putting her hand into my teritory.
Everytime I entered a new jungle, I am summon to turn around a sick teritory into a well groomed and exciting place to work and harvest. When my teritory is green, healthy and fruitful, coyotes in various disguises will try to enter and make a mark and impression off my hardwork. They are like linches who would suck my blood dry. consume my energy and my spirit. This new jungle I have already faced 2 coyotes. I believe as the months goes by, there will be more and more coyote disguised as other innocent animals in the hope to enter my teritory and stole the harvest. Worse, some will try to concure my teritory and outcast me.
Since this is not the first time I encounter multi face and attitude coyotes, I still have to guard my teritory wisely and on full alert. Stay tune to next episode of Life in the Jungle.